Friday 28 May 2010

Anxiety! Anxiety!! Anxiety!!!(*I'm having one of those moments where you spell an everyday word and it just looks strange - I had to give it a go three times - still looks strange*)

Anxiety always sounds like one of those words that we associate with big events in our lives like "Am I going to pass my GCSE's?", "Am I going to be the successful one?", "Will I ever get married?", "Why can't I put on any weight?", "Why do I keep putting on the pounds?", "I don't have the resources to meet my needs?", "Am I really getting old & when do I start losing all my teeth (this is major for me especially the teeth part - details to follow)?". In Life, we just get so burdened with these kind of thoughts that they become "part of us" - they are like a constant unseen partner.

...and then there are the small major things that we get anxious about but because they are so insignificant, we think "I'm allowed to worry about this, it's not such a big deal!". Perfect example - I get up this morning and all of the 20 minute drive to work, I am working myself up with the fact that "The IRON is ON!!". I'm smiling writing this because we all have these moments - "The gas is on", "I left a towel on the heater" and God bless my imagination, I tortured myself with images of "the iron" burning through my bed & setting fire to my apartment. Help us Lord!.

Right now, I just reminded myself of Philippians 4:6-7 "Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life"

It sounds really funny but I just sat here having my morning toast and I said "Jesus, I'm going to have a heart attack if I keep thinking my flat is burning down at this moment with my passport in there and it is holiday season. I trust you in this situation. I will not fret. I will not worry about the big things like losing my teeth and about the tiny things like this iron-situation. If for any reason I need to be at my flat, let me know. If not, I am going to have a beautiful Friday and feel your wholeness over this day".

Funny thing was after I said this, I got a very clear image of Fire trucks pulling into the building but I AM NOT GOING TO WORRY (it is a very conscious decision).

Have a worry free weekend & Enjoy every minute of it.

xoxo

Saturday 15 May 2010

Friday 14 May 2010

FREE


"Back jump zoom" by Dawn Okoro - http://www.dawnokoro.com/

Thursday 13 May 2010

Selfless Love

If you listen to a CD in your car, hear something funny, laugh out hysterically *alone*, turn to the right and realise that the driver next to you thinks you are either mad or just *strange* - put your hands UP! Yup, that's me every morning - who will love me?

This morning I was listening to a lady talk about how God moves in & with his church (that's you & I in simple terms). I'm certain that the church today is so much different than the church 20 years or 5 years ago. I believe that Jesus is leading us into his heart for "selfless" love. Selfless Love - it takes courage & determination to put others first, to love others first & to just-go-on-LOVING.

I believe that God is asking us to look outside our comfort zone, to come on an adventure with him - fully trusting, fully believing. What a challenge? What an exciting challenge. If you're looking for an adventure, get on the boat and go out with Jesus. He'll take you to places you've never seen, show you broken hearts that need a warm hug, lonely smiles that deserve to be loved - you'll reach out, not in your own strength but you become transparent to see and value every human being, every situation through the eyes of God.

This is an adventure!
This is a journey!

While we're on adventures, the i-Heart Revolution film is in London - June 17th 2010 (& I am out of the country). Click on http://alternative.artsalliancemedia.com/hillsong/cinemas/ to get all the details.

Take a friend, any friend. This movie is not just to stir something up in Christians but it is to stir the hearts of everyone. To realise that there is a world out there to reach - in your neighbourhood, your city, your town, your country - wherever you are. To realise the father heart of God.

I love you so so much!

Get on BOARD :)

Dear My Heart...


I stumbled across this website yesterday afternoon - "Leah Dieterich's mother always told her to write thank you notes. So she does. To everything"

What a brilliant idea? I started thinking thank-you notes in my head to situations that makes breathing difficult *literally*. Such a good habit. Try it.

I can relate to this thank you note to a heart - mine just wants to be loving even when I have nothing left to give - so I hope the rest of me catches up with you as soon as. xxxx

Tuesday 11 May 2010

This is Me!

"The very credentials these people are waving around as something special, I'm tearing up and throwing out with the trash—along with everything else I used to take credit for. And why? Because of Christ. Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant—dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him. I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ—God's righteousness."

Phil 3:7-9

#my story, my freedom, my Christ, my HOPE.

Dear KFC Bucket

Dear KFC bucket,
I am not your greatest fan but last night you did a great job binding hearts together in friendship. We did life together!!
Love, Ruky